.Friday, May 30, 2008 ' 4:02 PM Y
TRINITY MEGAN
Today was a really sad day for me. Just last night I have been expecting today to be a busy morning shift at work for me. As usual, I will be thinking what tomorrow holds for me everytime I'm lying down on my bed. I will kind of plan my day for tomorrow - what to do, what to expect. Kinda psychotic I know because it's sleeping time but I still think so much. And when things don't go my way, I may get annoyed and frustrated. Now I REALLY sound psychotic. Well...That's me. Haha!
Yesterday night was quite a drama. One of the patients in my ward in found unresponsive to call and with eyeballs uprolling. So we rushed to save him. Paged for the bloody doctor to come but he didn't turn up. Such a stupid and irresponsible S.O.B. He's not fit to be a doctor. If you are holding the bloody pager during that time, no matter even if it's one second or 2 miliseconds to your off duty time, YOU HAVE THE RESPONSIBLITY TO ATTEND TO WARD CALLS!!! More so when there is an emergency here, doc. Go smoke yourself silly. I hate this kinda people the most.
That aside, we managed to grab the patient back from the gates of hell. Phew, I'm making us nurses sound like angels and saviours. For your information, there wasn't any doctor around at that time. Nurses did the job in salvaging the patient's life. Somehow, all of us know what holds for the patient. This is already the second time that he is found like this - not responding to call and almost, almost "pergi".
What makes me so sad is that our dear patient which we have been taking care of for weeks is not around anymore. It all happened during the night shift time (not my shift). A lot of questions were unanswered. How did she passed away? What was the cause of her condition to be this way? Life is really unpredictable. Even the most healthy-looking patient you see can go anytime. It's bizarre. But it is not up to us to answer the doubts of all these. Change is the only thing that is constant. And we cannot predict what will happen ahead of us. We can anticipate, but, sometimes I just feel so sad that things are not within our control. I am overwhelmed by all that is happening to me.
All I can do is nurse the patients under my care well. I really wish that medical personnels have the passion in them to SAVE, not like the heartless doctor.