.Saturday, August 25, 2007 ' 6:31 PM Y
TRINITY MEGAN
I really didn't want to put down the word "single" as the title so I opted for "mono" because somehow, I feel it is really a desperate attempt in getting a date/ guy. LOL! Yeah, I'm single once again. After been through two failed relationships, I'm certainly right on track and raring to go again. I'm NORMAL again!!! So, rejoice...
The loneliness and void feeling which creeps in me every night is now ceasing and I'm getting more peaceful and dreamless sleep. Speaking of dream, I really hate them as everytime I wake up from one, I can't help but get headaches and keep thinking about my dream. Just like what I had last week when I napped where I dreamed my two room-mates talking bad about me right in my face and had the hideous laughter as if like those of a hyena. I can't help but wonder will that really happen. I just hate this feeling. So I told my room-mates about my dream and they can only laugh. My room-mate said usually this kinda dream means the opposite in real life. Now, I'm relieved.
Back to the topic, I had the chance to get to know a few guys but as a very picky and choosy "user", I only will take into account those who fits the criteria. LOL! I really am a very picky huh? What to do, this is me. Actually I'm kinda loose with the criteria already. I still remember last time before I even have a bf I have a long list of requirements I like in a guy and another long list of things I hate in a guy. But now, I'm more mature and I've learned to lower down my expectations to something more practical and realistic.
Actually being single is not a bad thing after all. I get more me-time, can hang out with whoever I wanted and do whatever I like. There are really less restrictions and things-not-do now. But it also means I don't have someone who'll be there for me anytime I need one, I don't have a male version of "Aunt Agony", I have to pay for my own shoppings now (not that I've been using his money all along but plus-minus the phone bill, bus tickets to Singapore and expensive gifts I get for him, it's much more worth it now).
Nevertheless, I'm enjoying myself more now and is kinda happier lah....LOL!